I Feel

I FEEL


I feel your arms
wrapped around me so tight,
I feel your body,
snuggled next to mine
in the middle of the night.

I feel your breath
on the back of my neck,
I feel your sweet soft lips,
kiss me with a gentle peck.

I feel, NO! Wait,
I cannot feel,
it is all too real.

I awaken in a panic,
look around and
you aren’t really there.
But I know it was real,
I felt your hands run through
my hair.

I feel something more now,
I must return
to my dream, somehow.
Please, oh please, still be there,
I am coming back, I swear!
This is the only place
I can hold you,
feel you, touch you.

I can’t find you now,
why did you go?
I asked you to stay,
I was on my way.
I must have taken too long.
Where did I go wrong?

I must now put my dreams aside,
Wake up and realize
that you really have died.
I have tried so hard
to hide behind,
all the silent tears
I have cried.

I feel you are still here,
I feel your presence
when you are near.
I feel your loving arms,
holding me while I dream.
A place I feel safe,
without wanting to scream.

I feel your lips gently touch mine,
as you say good-bye.
I feel my heart breaking
once again,
and I start to cry.

As you fade further away,
Into the light ray,
I can hear you say,
“I love you and miss you
my dear,
Have no fear,
for we will
meet again,
someday.”

-Dedicated to my late husband. Always in my dreams,
until we meet again. Love you and miss you-

The Weeping Widow

The Weeping Widow


Who was to know,
how that day would go.
You arose before dawn,
but it didnt take long
to realize you were gone.

No time to say good-bye,
even though I was by your side
Begging for you not to die,
over and over again, I tried.
Only God knows why you had to die,
that day, that way.

Now I lay awake,
many lonely nights,
Wondering how much more I can take.
It’s been such a long, hard fight.

Just want to close my eyes,
And get lost in my dreams,
Where there are no good-byes
And you are still alive, it seems.

As you lay all alone in that green pasture,
You can be sure,
Til death we did part,
And in death, we will once again
become one heart.

Dedicated to my late husband. Gone but not forgotten.
Love you always. Sandee Foxten